Letting go is hard

The feeling of falling in love hurts. I loved him but I doubted him. I wanted him to hold on but I told him to let go. It's complicated. My ego was in the way. I loved him so much till it hurts. Now we both have moved on. I guess I still can't honestly say I have truly forgotten everything we had. That can never be truly erased. Honestly I don't want it to go away. The experience made me who I am right now at this second. who knows I might have become another me if not for that experience. Right now he is with someone else. I admit I am jealous he found his footing so soon, but I think I'll get over it and find my own love that I will hold dear and willing to throw my pride away.